Thursday, July 16, 2015

Day 5 of the Best of the Life: True Christians

**Note: IDK why fonts and sizes keep changing! In my blog edits all in purple are supposed to be bold and italicized but it's not all showing up that way....

I should probably also note now that the days are not literal days as I cannot always get on everyday to post, however, each day I have a thought or a topic to discuss in my blog so when I do have time to post I can "catch up" and share my thoughts. :D

So here we go, day "five."

As the song lyrics say: "Rumor has it there's a gavel in my hand / I'm only here to condemn" many people seem to think that is all God does and is all about. horrible an image when God is a God of Love!

“Don’t believe everything you hear just because someone says it is a message from God; test it first to see if it really is!” 1 John 4:1 
Those who believe that God is evil because there is evil in this world and base their beliefs on those who call themselves Christians are sorely mistaken. There are two types of Christians as far as I have encountered. True Christians and "Fake" Christians.

"Fake" Christians by my definition are Christians that say they are Christians but their actions show otherwise. In their hearts, who knows how they feel or believe since only God knows what's truly in their hearts, however, based off their actions they give True Christians a bad image.

"Fake" Christians condemn others, not love others as they should. They are sadly being hypocrites! They say they love Jesus but how can they truly if they are doing the OPPOSITE of what God wanted his children to do?!

With recent events of Gay Marriage becoming legal in the United States, there have been many "Christians" condemning gays, and how is that right? Well, it's NOT! Gays are human too and deserve rights as well as you and I, even if you believe it's a sin. In the Bible, it is a sin, but that is not what this blog post is about; it's about loving others, especially those that you may find it hard to like whether it be gays, your parent(s), step-parents/siblings, your literal neighbor, etc.

What I do not understand is HOW some Christians can sit there and act out like that? Can't they see how hypocritical they are being? 

After all, Jesus, their LORD and Savior, NEVER condemned. Jesus NEVER murdered anyone. Jesus NEVER judged others. 

Jesus spread God's word. Jesus healed the sick. Jesus loved children. Jesus loved all. Jesus lived a perfect life because you cannot! Jesus was persecuted, executed on the cross, died, and then rose again three days later to officially conquer death and the Devil!

How does that translate to condemning others?

The 'Black Eyed Peas' got it right in their song "Where is the love?"And they are NOT a Christian band but this song is what True Christians should be like! 

Also I read that Will.I.Am was raised a Baptist. 

 Even I have a hard time seeing it in this world as of late. Who cares that gays can get married! Why can't you be happy for them for being happy?! Why does everyone look to the Crusades and think that ALL Christians are that way? Just because a select few became extremists, does not mean ALL are that way. 

The same applies to WWII. I am a German and almost EVERY time I tell someone that and the topic of Hitler comes up, they ask me what it's like being German and having your "Germans" murder millions? 

You know what I tell them? I tell them this: Yes I am German, but I didn't murder anyone. Hitler was crazy and was wrong, so please stop comparing me to Hitler. It's offensive.

Hitler believed he was doing the right thing, yet he wasn't! Murder is NEVER right. Many may give me a lot of harsh criticism for this, but I firmly believe abortion is MURDER! 

Jeremiah 1:5 tells us that God knows us before He forms us in the 

womb.Psalm 139:13-16 speaks of God’s active role in our creation

 and formation in the womb.Exodus 21:22-25prescribes the same 

penalty—death—for someone who causes the death of a baby in 

the womb as for someone who commits murder. This clearly 

indicates that God considers a baby in the womb to be as human as 

a full-grown adult. For the Christian, abortion is not a matter of a 

woman’s right to choose. It is a matter of the life or death of a 

human being made in God’s image (Genesis 1:26-27;9:6).

Tonight on Facebook, my boyfriend saw this image and said this:

"This is such a dumb comparison. Christianity has been around for thousands of years compared to maybe a couple hundred for the other 2. And don't forget about the numerous amount of Christians who have been, and still are being persecuted. Yes many have died under Christianity, but like I said this is not a fair comparison."

After, he received a TON of comments, one person in particular saying:

"That's perfectly fair it just shows that Christians will kill throughout

 the ages because someone stepped up and stopped the other two"

" Christians" all over the country beat members of the lgbt 

community to death daily just because they are gay"

"Christians" kill abortion doctors and patients just because they are

 sinners by their own standards not ever once considering the 

living persons beliefs or emotions"

As a True Christian, that should be offensive! We 

need to stand up and show the World that 
True Christians are NOT that way! 

Just because someone says they are Christian, take a step back and watch them. How do they act? What do they say? DO NOT JUDGE THEM, however you may see that not all Christians act like one.

So to end this topic, DO NOT believe what you hear about God. He is not EVIL! He is GOOD and JUST and, most of all he is LOVE! And as Christians we should be spreading Love!


Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Day 4 of the Best of my Life: Faith

Faith. Faith is the hardest part of finding Christ aside from believing that Jesus was conceived by the Holy Spirit and born of the virgin Mary. Many people struggle with that concept and I've never really understood why.

Why is it that others can believe in evolution and the big bang, but not in Jesus who died for our sins?! They believe in science, but cannot also believe in God (or a God for that matter)? Why? Why is it so hard to believe in the unseen? 

God gave us free will, and because of that, we can choose to either believe in him or not. God wants us to believe, but he does not force us to do so. The Devil wants us to fail and join him in Hell, yet if you choose to believe in God and have faith that his son Jesus was born, lived a perfect life here on Earth, and then was persecuted, crucified, and then buried and then three days later he rose again from the dead to conquer death and the Devil, you WILL BE SAVED! 

However, that is inconceivable according to others who believe that there may or may not be a God and believe in science.

Why science? Yes it explains a LOT about our universe, but why can't you also believe that God created this stunningly beautiful universe?!

I choose to believe. I have faith. 

However, that does NOT mean it is ALWAYS EASY to believe in the unseen, especially when I have those around me who question me and my strong belief in God. They ask me how I can believe in a God who lets us live in a cruel world? 

Well, God did not create sin originally! Sin came into the world AFTER he created it because Eve first sinned when she was tempted by Satan in the form of a serpent. Therefore, we now HAD to live in a world of sin until we die and either join God in Heaven or join Satan in Hell.

Despite what others may say, I DO believe in both Heaven and Hell. It's Good vs. Evil and why let Evil win? That is EXACTLY what you are doing when you deny Christ as your Savior, you are denying Good and allowing Evil to consume you.

Does that mean you are evil if you choose not to believe? Of course not, but that's the best way that I can try to explain it. God allows Evil to flourish to test us; he likes to challenge us. At the same time he is always with us, even if you push him away. You are only pushing him away in your mind, but in reality, God is still there even if you refuse to believe that he exists.

God's NOT Dead!

Through Faith we can come to Jesus. Through Faith we can find love, happiness, joy, contentment, and many more positive feelings. Without Faith, you may feel lost or like you don't know why you are here on Earth because you have this doubt, this uncertainty. 

You may be afraid of death because you are unsure what happens when you or loved ones die. You may be afraid of this world and where it seems to be heading as we hear more and more about war, famine, natural disasters, poverty, etc. 

Faith can be your ANSWER to ALL your FEARS and DOUBTS! All you have to do is just believe! Even the faith the size of a mustard seed is enough!

I know I have said this a LOT but it's PIVOTAL to why I am a Christian, but I have had a very harsh life. Been through all forms of abuse, been around drugs and alcoholism, watched my parents go through a brutal and abnormally long divorce when my dad left my mother for another woman who got him on the wrong path, lost two homes to foreclosure, one I built with my family and lived in for 10 years. 

I have seen the effects of Bipolar and Schizophrenia on multiple family members, and even me included (possibly), I have been diagnosed with PTSD from terrifying memories, and have lived through "poverty" (according to American standards). 

I have lost several family members that I was close to. I even blamed myself for my Papa's death! He died in 2004 the night before our family reunion and I never had a chance to say goodbye, but even worse, I felt sick to my stomach because I knew I was going to get my prayers answered.

I prayed that my cousins who lived in Florida would be able to come to the reunion, but I learned that they could not make it, but that was before Papa died suddenly from a massive heart attack in the 10pm hour the night before. 

I thought it was MY FAULT that he died. I got to see my cousins at the funeral, and I had a hard time looking at them and hanging out with them because I hated myself.

With all that hurt and pain, how can I NOT turn to God?! God never abandoned me. When I was hurting, I cried out to Jesus and he answered more of my prayers, and even my horrible thoughts.

One night, months after Papa died, I had a vivid dream. My Papa came to me to comfort me. He told me things that happened AFTER he died! He told me that his death my not my fault; that God called him home at the time he deemed right. He told me that he loved me and that he was proud of me and my cousins for making the honor roll again. 

He told me one day we will see each other again in Heaven. He told me he was no longer in pain or sadness and that his death was quick and painless. 

How then was that dream not sent by God? I HATED myself. I BLAMED myself. I was LOST, SCARED, and DEPRESSED up until that moment. 

After, I woke up crying and those tears were tears of sheer JOY and HAPPINESS! I NO LONGER BLAMED myself. NO LONGER HATED myself. I found COMFORT and PEACE sweep over me. I felt LOVED by God and my Papa.

To me personally, that is EXACTLY why I am a Proud Christian. That is why I believe in the unseen. That is why I believe in Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. That is why I believe in God the Father and the Holy Spirit; the Triune God.

I will walk by Faith!

I believe because I have seen what FAITH CAN DO!

With that said, I will ALWAYS walk by Faith, and I want to ENCOURAGE you to do so as well, especially if you are skeptical about God and if he even exists. 

I have been through MANY tests, and therefore I have a STRONG testimony, hence this blog!!!

I will NEVER force my belief on ANYONE, but maybe at least consider what I have said and give Faith a try and see for yourself what faith can do?!

In all honesty, what do you have to lose if you give Faith a try? You'll not lose anything at all! Rather, you will GAIN so much more! If you don't want to take my word for it through my testimony, then that's okay. I'll still love and respect you as I hope you love and respect me.

In Jesus' name I pray for all my family and friends who struggle with faith, with believing in the unseen, and in a God. If my testimony brings others to Christ then I am doing what Jesus did and what God wants us to do. "Go and make disciples of ALL NATIONS..." That's what I want to do, but only if they are willing to listen and want to follow Jesus. If not, grant me patience, love, and respect for others with differing beliefs. You gave us free will and due to that we have other religions and even atheists. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!

Monday, July 13, 2015

Day 3 of the Best of my Life: Loving Myself

In the past I HATED myself. I thought I was worthless and could never amount to anything. I felt like those around me had it better than I and that I would never find an end to my suffering. That's why one day at my weakest I tried to kill myself. 

First I tried overdosing on sleep aids, but that was a flop. 

Then I decided to be more gruesome and drastic; I wanted to overcome one of my greatest fears and kill myself with a knife. Many do not know a major secret of mine and I am about to tell you. 

When I was about eight years old, a family member (I will  not say who, but those who know me well enough know who I am taking about) cornered me with a butcher knife and threatened to kill me. I went to my father who didn't believe that I was telling the truth! I was traumatized and afraid of that family member for years....and still am.

Ever since then, I have a fear of knives, especially when they are pointed at me by another person. I literally flinch and freak out, even cry. I was later diagnosed with PTSD and have had nightmares about the incident. 

However, one day I held a knife up to my throat and wanted to slice....but in one LAST cry for HELP, I prayed to Jesus. Can you guess what happened IMMEDIATELY after? 

Well I'll tell you: I felt a deep sensation within me and afterward, I dropped the knife and fell to my knees in tears.

I cried for those I would hurt if I killed myself and that thought disgusted me. I was then disgusted with myself for allowing the Devil  or his minions take hold of my fragile mind and try to convince me that suicide was the answer.

I have always been afraid of Hell, but in that moment, I didn't care. I hated myself.

Yet look at me now! I am more alive than ever and I LOVE who I have become. Through my weakest moment, I have become strong, and it was because I called upon the name of Jesus. Through him I have strength. I have also found strength through those around me who love and care for me. God placed them in my life for a reason and I am grateful and I never want to be so foolish again! 

I have always believed suicide was wrong and never the answer, so why did I want to do something I was also afraid of? Well, it's simple: I lost hope.

Hope is powerful! When you have hope, followed by love, you will rise above ALL your hardships and fears. Hope is not just a word, it is also actions. We can give hope to others and we can also pray for hope to grant us peace.

I have found that hope, love, and peace through Jesus, and then through the Father. He gave me all the answers I was looking for, and I am so thankful my blindness was taken away so I can truly see how beautiful this world can be.

With that said, I want to give hope, love, and peace to others who are in need. What greater gift is there than that?! Even without Jesus, the thought of giving hope to others is powerful, but when you add Jesus into the mix you are then limitless!

That's why I want to go on mission trips and be a part of Compassion International. I am about to share with you some videos about Compassion to hopefully inspire others to sponsor a poor child in poverty. I am unable to be a part of that organization at the moment, but for a brief time I was. I sponsored a child from Indonesia named Davidson who is only 3 years old. My heart broke when I had to learn that I had to be financially responsible and sponsoring a child was not in the budget. 

Yet, one day I WILL be financially stable and can go back to that organization and help a child. I smile when I think of the impact I can do and I am only one person. A person who, if not for Jesus, would be in  Hell with regret, but I have been saved and have now discovered my true purpose and that gives me inner happiness, peace, and hope. ♥

Videos about Compassion and how they got started:

1. What is Compassion?
2. Story of Compassion

3. Living the Legacy

4.  Jesus' Name

5. The Voice

6. What is Poverty?

I am hoping those videos moved you in profound ways to help another in need.

Goodnight and God Bless!

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Day 2 of the Best of my Life: "That was then. This is now"

Note: I DO NOT own that image. All rights reserved to TobyMac.

"That was then, this is now You’re bought by the blood, saved by the Son the saints all sing about That was lost, this is found And it’s time to say goodbye to the old you now"

I have always loved Josh Wilson and his powerful and uplifting lyrics and this song perfectly ties into this blog. 

We are not bound to our past. It's "the past" for a reason because what has been done cannot be changed, though we all have had moments where we wished we could change our past. Why though do we feel like this? Well we have all done things we regret; however, we do not have to keep score anymore. 

Jesus paid for all of our sins, even those we may regret by his blood. Through Him we are saved. "We have been remade by grace," as Josh Wilson states in his song. It's the truth.

"So go ahead, put the past in the past Box it up like an old photograph You don’t have to go back ‘Cause that was then and this is....NOW!"

We all should put the past behind us and move on. Learn from our mistakes but do NOT let them control you. Why stress over something that you cannot change? It is really silly and will take away your energy when you do so. 

I have been choosing to forgive and forget my past. Yes, those who know me very well will know I have been through a LOT of hurt and pain. However, my past shaped who I have become and although I sometimes wish I did not have a harsh life, I was given one for a reason. If not for my past, there is NO WAY I would be where I am at today.

My past was something I had to learn and grow away from and moving on was and still is very hard for me. There are days I break down and cry over it, asking "God why did you give me a horrible life?!"

Yet it was NOT HORRIBLE! It was HARD but not HORRIBLE. Without that pain, I would not see love, grace, and true happiness. 

Lately, I have been proactive about my health and mental health. I HAVE to else, I would keep breaking down. With that said, the most IMPORTANT change I have been proactive about is my Spiritual Health. Yes, to me that is a real thing. Without God, I am NOTHING!

He created me, not the other way around, and as my Heavenly Father, he knows what is best for me. He know's what is best for you too, even if you cannot see it, nor feel him with you. God has never left any of us. We CHOOSE to either follow him or deny him. He gave us that Free Will for a reason, and it hurts him MORE when his Children turn away from him, hate him, yell in anger at him.

We all love to raise our fists to Heaven and scream "WHY GOD?! WHY?!"

We can be the change in this cruel world if we DO NOT let our past rule our future. Put it behind you and move on and then you will see how beautiful life can really be.

So with that said, have a Blessed Sunday and Keep the PAST IN THE PAST!


Saturday, July 11, 2015

Day 1 of the Rest of my Life: We need Jesus

As this song implies, we need Jesus to free us from the burden of our sins so that we can live our lives to our full potential. But before I dive into how that song has become one of my new favorite songs, I should mention briefly my journey to Christ.

I have always considered myself a Christian, however, most of my life I never fully lived like one, until recently when my world began to crash once more. I felt severe depression creep up on me to the point where I loathed myself and wondered why I was even here on Earth? Was God even real? I wondered those questions and more until one day at my weakest, I tried to commit suicide and failed. Then, a few weeks later I tried again. After the second time I failed I realized that that is not the answer either, and I felt trapped in a world that scared me to death, and even I could not achieve that much on my own.

I started to realize that I needed Christ back in my life and this time, fully accept him into my heart. Back in June I finally cried out to Jesus and asked for his help and since then I have been noticing my life getting better, starting with loving myself.

Now, I look back and am glad I failed attempting suicide twice because how my life is going now it's well worth living and living it for God. He gave me many talents like writing, baking/cooking, strong computer skills, and even the blessing of feeling happy when I can make others happy and smile. I want to use my talents along with my education in computers, and future education in nursing to become a missionary nurse. 

The best part, I have my foot in the door already to become a missionary nurse as I work at a medical clinic as a receptionist and that clinic is a Christian based clinic that still goes on mission trips! What a blessing in disguise, or at least I didn't see it until recently.

My name is Sarah, which means princess, so therefore, I am a Princess of Christ and today is day one of my blog that will detail many aspects of my life, past, present, and future, and how it made me who I am today or who I want to be through Christ who gives me strength. ♥